wtf? it took me 30 min to blog my angst and after saving, it turns to nothing.  bs!

Let me just shortened what I wrote earlier, two persons have taught  me to be stronger, it hurts so much that I don’t even want to interact with them anymore but I don’t have a choice, as much as I want to, I can’t, because they’re my superiors.

here are the things I have learned:

1.  Do not be too much friendly, they think of me as a very lenient team lead.  (How I wish they see how my heart turns into pieces everytime I gave memo’s to my team)

2. Don’t talk too much, they think of me as a nagger team lead. (How I wish they would see how supportive I am to my team because I’m so blessed that they were able to achieve their targets)

3.  Don’t move too much, they will think I’m not doing anything. (How I wish they know how I manage my time to finish everything accordingly).

4.  Don’t mingle too much, just because I want to.

I don’t want to pretend as if nothing happened, the meeting that happened turned me down, this is not me being immature, but me being able to meet the targets they wanted me to meet, to monitor team’s performance very well and to avoid escalations as much as possible, but i really guess this is not good enough.

Less talks, less mistakes, less friends, less troubles!

Happy Valentine’s day to the worst Team Lead of First ADV!